Friday, May 22, 2009

I've succumbed

I just went to CVS and bought Benadryl. And Sudafed. And Afrin. (I like options.)

I've made it 29 weeks and 4 days without any medicine besides some Tums. No Tylenol, even through the early-second-trimester headaches. No allergy meds, even though I had been on FOUR before getting pregnant. Nada.

I should be proud. I should feel good about this accomplishment. I do.

So why do I feel like a failure for giving in now?

I should be proud that I've made it this far. I am. But I also feel like a total loser for giving in at this point. Do I really feel *that* bad? I just made it an hour without blowing my nose (not something I was able to do during the day today)--do I *really* need to take some now?

So here I sit, box of Benadryl sitting beside me. Taunting me.

My doctor wouldn't tell me I could take something if it could be harmful to the baby, right? So why am I so leery of putting this into my body?

Okay, I found a slight compromise. The dosage is 1 OR 2 pills. I'll take one. Not taking the max dosage, but still taking some, hoping to get a better night's sleep than last night.

Wish me luck.


Tanda32506 said...

If it makes you feel any better, the pedi says its ok to give infants benedryl, so it's certainly ok to take while pg. Hope your feeling better!!

Sarah Dee said...

hugs. You're doing a great job of taking care of your baby. You can't do that if you're not taking good care of yourself.

Mandy said...

You shouldn't feel bad at all, but I understand that crushing guilt you can't control. You have done an awesome job and will continue to do so. I was popping Benedryl in the first trimester before I completely came to terms with not being able to breathe out of my nose for the next nine months. I hope you get some relief from the medicines!

Laura said...

I know you feel guilty, but you have to take care of yourself as well as P!

Danica said...

Hope you're better!