The feedback I get from those of you who post comments means the world to me, but the silence I hear from everyone else makes me want to run and hide and not post anymore entries that are so revealing of my soul. I realize that yesterday's post was about 24 hours ago and not all blog readers are so
This is NOT trying to beg for comments or anything--just sharing, again, how I'm feeling. Honestly. Openly.
Why does it matter if people are judging me? It just does. I wish I could take on the attitude of not caring what others think of me, but that's not who I am or how I operate.
I love blogging. I love expressing my feelings and talking about my little girl in a place that people can choose to visit and read (rather than bombarding all my FB friends and message board members with story after story of all the cute things she does). But I don't just do it for me. I don't just do *anything* for me. I try to tell funny stories to amuse you. I try to talk about how I'm feeling in the hopes that someone else might be feeling the same way and either I can help them or we can, at least, find some camaraderie in it. Some part of this blog is for my own record-keeping. It's what I do instead of a baby book. One of these days I'll go fill out her baby book and I'll use this blog to determine when she took her first steps, got her first tooth, and said her first word.
But mostly, I blog for the community. And rather than hearing the comments I do get, the silence is saying more.