Back on the WW Wagon

I know I said about a month ago that I was getting back on the wagon.  That was a complete failure.

Yesterday, though, I started counting points again.  You know what?  It's HARD.  I did it for so long that it became second nature, but I'm having a really tough time with it now.  I've been eating whatever I want since Thanksgiving 2008 (wow...).  Yesterday I went all balls-to-the-wall and had eaten so few points that I needed to have a big piece of cake before bed.  But the cake had gone bad.  So then I was scrambling to stuff something into my piehole...and found the canister of whipped cream.  lol  I still didn't meet my points for the day.

But then today I went out to lunch with a friend.  I got this wrap that I thought would be pretty healthy...it was 12 points alone.  Glad I didn't get any chips! 

I have no idea how I used to do this regularly, especially because I was eating a LOT less points per day.  With breastfeeding, I'm allotted an extra 5-10 points per day (I can't decide how many...the description for 5 is for if you're supplementing with formula or food and for 10 is just for nursing mamas.  For now, I'm allowing myself 7 points b/c I'm still nervous about dropping supply.).  That means if I weren't nursing, I'd be having to have even less points per day.  Geez.

I just had to do something about this body, though.  I can't look in the mirror.  I hate the way I feel.  I still feel like I look like shit a mom who doesn't sleep much most days, but at least maybe I'll be a thinner hot mess.  We'll see if it works.

(And again with the schedule posting not working??!?!!  Ugh!)