Wednesday, April 11, 2012

37 Weeks

How am I feeling? Physically, pretty rough. Since last night I have been crampy and have had some backaches. Nothing horrible, but it feels like something is going on. I hope I'm right, but feeling very doubtful.

I'm tired, achy, and really irritable. Last night my anxiety hit an all-time high (before any of the physical symptoms started) and it hasn't really stopped since. So yeah...I'm ready to be done, which is a place I NEVER hit with Baby Girl.

Weight thoughts: One piece of good(-ish) news...according to the doctor's office, I've lost 3 pounds in the week since my last appointment. LOL It was a regular digital floor scale, so I'm sure I'll gain 5 pounds by the next appointment if I go back to the other scale. But my home scale was telling me that I'd held steady, so that's good to hear.

Doctor appointments? This is where this is going to get really long. I had an appointment on Monday. It was scheduled for 3:30 to get a good ultrasound picture of Baby Boy so we could figure out how big he was.

The easy answer is that he looks healthy.

The longer answer is that we will very likely be scheduling another C-section.

The story:

My appointment was at 3:30 and I didn't see my doctor until 5:15, which means The Hubby missed the actual appointment because he had to leave to go pick up Baby Girl. I was already really frustrated (and weepy) by the time I went back to the room, then found out that it looks pretty sure that we'll be scheduling a C-section. My cervix hasn't changed whatsoever (still VERY firm and closed, she said), making the doctor pretty sure that it isn't going to enough to make a vaginal delivery easy or possible. I realize that there are many people who have progressed quickly after having a closed cervix, but I'm just going off of what my doctor said. Boomer's head is actually bigger than Baby Girl's, which is saying something. When the doctor measured it, it was the size of a 41+ weeker, not a 37 week baby. It was measuring in the 99.5th percentile. Combine those two pieces with the fact that he's face up (which is not the way you want to deliver a baby) and it just doesn't look likely that we're going to be doing a VBAC. I know a lot of people don't understand why I want one so badly, but I just do. And it makes me feel like my body is failing me, like it isn't doing something right.

But the good news is that Boomer is big and healthy and we're going to have a wonderful little boy sometime in the next 3 weeks. And I know that that's what is really important. According to her estimates (which could obviously be off), he's already 7 lbs 6 oz, which is bigger than Baby Girl was when she was born. His head was huge, his abdomen was measuring in the 77th percentile and the length of his femur (upper leg bone) was 21st percentile, which means he'll be shaped a lot like her--short with a big head.

The doctor said I could still have my water break and could still go into labor, but she wasn't very optimistic about our chances for a VBAC. So we're still waiting to see what's going to happen. I did get a message this morning that she's scheduled my C-section for Friday, April 27th at 8 a.m., just in case. After the cramping and then waking up to a belly that I think has dropped some, though, my hope is restored slightly that my body was just being slow. I have another appointment next Tuesday morning and will be praying for some progress.

Movement? Baby Boy is still moving all over the place a lot. I keep thinking it will slow down, but it hasn't yet. He has definite routines, though, and I typically know when he's going to be really mobile, so it surprised me last night when he was moving all over the place before and during dinner, which was also when the cramping started. It was really odd. He still really responds to peanut butter. I hadn't had any in awhile, then had some this morning for breakfast and he's been doing a jig in there since.

Baby preparation? Over the weekend we did get a hospital bag mostly packed. I apparently don't have a shirt to wear home in the bag, but that's a minor detail, right? :) Because we'd removed Baby Girl's car seat to put it in my mom's car while she was babysitting, The Hubby put it back into the car it came from behind the passenger seat (it had been behind the driver's seat). She's loving the new point of view and we decided that we wanted the infant seat where the passenger could get to the baby. After the cramping and things from last night, we put the hospital bag into the car this morning and even loaded up the base for the infant seat. It isn't installed, but at least it's with us. We also contacted the people who we're hoping will watch Baby Girl if we have an unexpected arrival and made a plan with that. So we could have this baby today (please....) and I think we'd be okay.


Liz said...

(((hugs))) i'm sorry you had a somewhat shitty doctors appt. Probably didn't help that DH couldn't be there for it, either :( I'll cross my fingers that things change by Tuesday and you'll hopefully be able to get your VBAC!

The Stoycheffs said...

There's still plenty of time to go into labor. I'm CONVINCED that I was going to go into labor with Eli on that day anyway...I had some weird symptoms that morning and my water broke on it's own after just a little pitocin during the induction. So you never know.

That being said...the face up thing is okay and not okay at the same time. I pushed Aidan out that way. Very minor tearing, no interventions...BUT it took 3 hours. I was having irregular contractions for most of it so it would have been quicker if that weren't the case, but he was just stuck with his head angled the wrong way because of being face up. He just had to decide to shift it a little and finally he did. THEY CAN TURN to face down on their own very easily from what I've heard. You have time up until the moment he's coming out -- I still don't know which way Eli was. But it would have also sucked to go through all of labor and three hours of pushing and be told THEN that you need a C-section. Because that happens with face up babies too...not to make you worry about that. But I did it face up. And no forceps or vacuum or anything like that.

It's almost over. You have an end date in sight. And hopefully this little guy decides to get going soon. I started dilating after a few weeks of nothing. And I was only 1 1/2 when my water broke with Aidan. So hopefully your OB is just being a little melodramatic...mine was telling me at this point that we had a while to go before we should decide anything. Follow your heart and keep the faith!

Cassie said...

Ugh. I'm really, really, hoping and praying that you get the outcome you're hoping for. I really want you to be able to have a VBAC because I know how important it is to you. ((HUGS))

When I read the words "three weeks," I got goosebumps. He's going to be here SO SOON! And no matter how how gets here, that little boy is going to be so cuddled and loved and amazing and incredible. I'm so excited for you!!!

Mandy said...

Oh I have to hope you DON'T go into labor just so your DS can share a birthday with mine!

(Cool as that would be, I really do hope you get some relief sooner if possible.)