Tuesday, December 30, 2008
They did do a urine HPT and that made me the teeniest bit nervous! It still came up as pregnant, so that made me feel better :) Then we moved onto the u/s and everything.
During the appt, I asked if thyroid levels were a typical blood test they did (my maternal grandma lost 2 babies b/c of thyroid problems). The doctor said no, but that there's a study that I could participate in to have it checked. I enrolled in the study (took about 3 minutes), got a $10 Target GC, and when I went down for other blood work and they just took an extra vial of blood--no problem! It was all very easy and this way, if my thyroid levels are off, I'll know and we can think about treatment.
Such a relief! Now we just need to make it through the next few weeks and we can breathe even easier :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
This post may completely random--lots of things to express today :)
What I'm experiencing right now:
~ Anxiety ~ Our first doctor's appointment is FINALLY tomorrow morning at 9:40 a.m.! Even though I've been consistently experiencing symptoms, I still worry and pray that everything is okay in there! I can't wait to see our little one!
~ Nausea ~ It showed up at almost exactly 6 weeks, went away at almost exactly 7 weeks, then came back on Christmas Day at 8.5 weeks. It's not horrible and, as I've been telling people, if this is as bad as it gets, I'll be just fine.
~ Twinges ~ I definitely wouldn't call them cramps--just some pulling pretty low every once awhile. I'm not at all worried about it and hope I shouldn't be!
~ Exhaustion ~ This has been one symptom that hasn't really gone away much in the last 5 weeks or so. I constantly feel like I could go to sleep. I still haven't fallen asleep on anyone, but I sure feel like I could!!!
~ Bloating ~ I write that as I sit here with my pants undone at work. LOL! These are some skinnier pants and I think they're getting packed away VERY soon. I have plenty of pants that fit sort of big and won't put as much pressure on my tummy. Pressure=nausea. Blech.
~ Headaches ~ They aren't horrible, but I think it's worse because I'm trying VERY hard not to take anything for them!!!
~ Acid ~ Blech. I burp up almost anything I eat and find that if I drink water around the time I eat it's even worse. It's really hard to get in a lot of water when you can't drink when you eat and you're eating all the time. I've tried Tums, but I have just been burping them up, too...and orange cream Tums the 2nd time around aren't all that pleasant.
~ Food aversions ~ It hasn't been horrible, but I have no interest in meat right now, so planning meals has been pretty difficult. I survived the holidays pretty well, but am hoping this is just a first trimester thing!
~ Nipple tenderness ~ They've been pretty sore since around the time of my BFP. Nothing horrible and it comes and goes, but it's definitely still there!
~ Congestion ~ Since I can't take anything for my allergies or a cold, I'm really paranoid about this. I was surrounded by sickness during part of the holiday, so I was really nervous that I'd catch it, but with the help of my Neti Pot and maybe a bit of prayer, I came out unscathed. The 70 degree day we had here, though, almost did me in! My allergies were going CRAZY with the windows down in the car! Luckily I'll be in the 2nd trimester by the time spring rolls around and I may be able to go back on my allergy medicines by then (my precaution, not my doctor's--she told me I could stay on all my meds when we got pg, but I didn't want to risk it)!
~ Gas ~ How could I forget???? I don't think I need to say any more, though....
What I'm NOT experiencing:
Just goes to show you that every pregnancy is different! (this is what I keep reminding myself to keep myself sane)
I'll post sometime tomorrow (it may be a crazy day with two doctor's appointments and 3 meetings at work!) to let you all know how the appointment goes. Say a little prayer that we've got good news!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
....2 weeks until we see P (which is what DH decided to start calling the baby--and no, it doesn't stand for anything. lol)!
So much to look forward to, but so much stress as well!
Since we won't be in town most of next week (but will have someone staying in our house, all you would-be robbers...), we need to get a lot done in the next 4 days (bear with me while I write it all out here...)
- Wraps gifts
- Finish purchasing gifts (mostly online and a couple of GCs)
- Put together gifts
- Buy gift bags
- Do laundry
- Make food for tomorrow (holiday potluck at work)
- Make food for Saturday (party at a friend's)
- Do Christmas cards if we're going to....
- Put my Secret Nestie gift in the mail
- Order gift for DH's cousin's wedding (we aren't attending, but want to send something since I slacked on the shower)
- Finish up everything for work
- Get an oil change
- Bake Christmas cookies (I really want to do this, but don't know if I'll have time)
- SLEEP (yes, I have to put it on the list or it won't get done)
I do love Christmas, but will love it a lot more once this is all done!!!
Have a happy holiday, everyone!!!
Monday, December 15, 2008
I'm so scared. I wish I weren't. I wish I could just relax and be at least somewhat naive about the whole thing and believe in my heart that this pregnancy is going to stick for the next 9 months, but I'm having a really hard time with it. And I know the stress of being worried isn't good for the baby at all, so it's this horrible vicious cycle. I worry that baby won't be okay, that causes more stress, making it more likely that baby won't be okay, then I worry some more... How do I relax and just try to enjoy this and not feel paralyzed by the fear of a miscarriage?
I want to be a mommy more than anything in the world and after the road we took to get here (not as long and painful as others, but it wasn't particularly pleasant), I fear having to start all over again.
The problem is that yesterday I felt great. Why is that a problem, you ask? Well, it makes me paranoid that, with some symptoms beginning to disappear, my estrogen and progesterone levels are decreasing. Yes, I'm overly paranoid, probably, but I'm trying to prepare myself for all the different outcomes.
So while I hate the nausea while I'm experiencing it, when it's not here, it makes me worry. Neurotic? Yes, of course.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Of course DH is paranoid, too, and is VERY worried that he's given me his cold. I was battling with nausea pretty badly one evening, so he called me at work the next day and asked how I was feeling. I told him the nausea wasn't too bad that day, but then realized he was actually making sure I hadn't gotten his cold! lol I'm sure I'll get one at some point, but we're in for a bad winter if I get one already!
I guess the exhaustion is my body's way of making me sleep when I really need it, but it's pretty bad timing with the holidays! I don't have energy to do any Christmas shopping or any of the things I need to do to prepare for the next few weeks. And I have no idea how I'm going to handle being in houses with lots and lots of food....ick. But we'll do the best we can because we're just working on keeping this baby as healthy as possible.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I watched the urine wick over the stick and saw no line and wanted to cry. I got done and started to leave the bathroom when I thought I actually did see a line. I yelled downstairs to DH (who was entertaining guests during halftime of the OSU/M*ch*g*n game), "honey, would you please come help me look for something?" He came upstairs."What do you see?"
"Ummm...a line. "
"How many lines?"
"Two. What does that mean?"
"What do you think that means!??!"
"I don't believe you."
So then I POAnotherS.
And then he understood. And we cried. And hugged. And then we hid our excitement because we weren't ready to share our good news.
The first week or so (at least!) I didn't have any symptoms besides slightly sorer bbs and quite a bit of creamy CM.
Before I hit 6 weeks, I'd had a couple of waves of nausea, but nothing too huge (except on Saturday the 6th--that morning was rough). I was exhausted, though. *yawn* I can't stay awake past 8:30 or 9 most nights. And now...the "morning" sickness has hit me. I'm bloated (I think...I tried to ignore the state of my belly before). And I'm starting to believe I really am pregnant.
Part of me feels guilty for being pregnant. After TTC for 8 months, I was starting to accept that we were going to have trouble TTC and had gotten myself into a group of people who were TTC, many of whom had trouble TTC. And now I'm not in it anymore and that's just weird to me. I feel guilty that I got out, that I'm pregnant, and they aren't. I love these girls and pray for them every day and hope to hear great news from them when they're reaching the end of their cycle. I want the absolute best for them and I want them to join me in the, for lack of a better word, life-after. Life after being categorized as TTC (if not trouble TTC).
Why did I get chosen when there are others who have been trying longer than DH and I did? And, in the same vein, why are there others who can get pg the first try? It just seems like it would be fairer if we all knew it would take 6 cycles to get pg and it did for everyone. But that's just not how it works. So even though I feel like I paid my pennance, I waited for longer than the "average" (whatever that means), I feel guilty for those that have been trying for longer.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Just so you know, I did NOT lie to you....I have been ridiculously busy at work (12/1 is a big deadline) and haven't had much time to blog or anything. But I have been lying by omission.
I'M PREGNANT!!!!!! :)
I'll post all details later--I've even been writing stuff out like symptoms and everything and will continue to post here about all the personal stuff (lucky you) :)