Monday, June 29, 2009


I am NOT a person who has trouble sleeping. In all my life, if nothing else, I slept. If I was stressed, I slept. If I was sad, I slept. If I was happy, I slept. It's just what I do. So what was wrong with me last night? We went to bed right around 9:30, our normal bed time. We had had an exhausting weekend, so I should have been able to fall asleep immediately, as normal. But no. Sleep did not come easily. I laid in bed for two hours, listening to DH sleeping, worrying about everything under the sun related to this baby. I couldn't turn my mind or my emotions off and every few minutes the tears would fall. I'm having a harder and harder time holding tears back these days. I'm scared, nervous, worried, sad.... It's relatively illogical. I should be happy that I'm going to be a mommy. This is something I've wanted my entire life. We're as prepared as we'll ever be.


Liz said...

I got that way towards the end, too. They tell you to get all the sleep you can before the baby comes, but you've got so much racing through your mind that you can't sleep! No advice except to let you know I've been there :) hugs!

Mrs. Hammer said...

:( I've hear that it's supposed to prepare you for when the baby comes and you don't get to sleep but it still stinks. I'm sorry you can't sleep :(

Mandy said...

Yup, I could have written this. It just comes out of nowhere, doesn't it? I hope you're able to get better sleep tonight!