A weird place

I realized last night how odd of a place I'm at in my life. I'm trying very hard to lose weight (last night I got great news--I'm over 70 pounds overall and lost 25 with WW, which means I passed my 10% goal as well with WW) but I'm also trying very hard to get pg. I suppose it's good in the sense that AF can show and I can say "well, at least I have another 4 weeks to get my weight under 200 pounds". But it just seems weird. Like I'm in a race or something--which will win, the weight loss goal or the goal to be a mommy?